Gracy...

On January 30, 2012, our youngest daughter passed away unexpectedly.  This has left a hole in our hearts and much quietness in our home.  It has been a challenge for all of to get to the point where we can mention her name or go into her room.  I have personally, have had a very difficult time with her passing.  My doctor has put me on anti-anxiety medications so that I can function during the day.  With that being said... I was very ANGRY with God for taking her!  She had just turned five and was learning sign language and how to communicate with us.  The Saturday before she passed, she said "Mama".  I bought a few books on how to deal with the loss of a child.  I read in this book, "Angel Children, doctrinal perspectives on the Salvation of little children", by Mary W. Hill.  As I was reading this book, I found that even the loss of a child, either a newborn, an older child or an adult, that the pain was real.  Heber J. Grant said "I never think of my wives and my dear Mother, my two boys, my daughter, my departed friends, and my beloved associates as being in the graveyard...My mind reaches out to the wonderful joy and satisfaction and happiness that they are having, and it robs the grave of it's sting."  How true this is.  I have not been leaning on the Lord.  He carries us through these times of pain ans suffering and loves us in the process.  In Heleman 5:12 it talks about the foundation on which we have built out faith on.  I believe that the gospel of Jesus Christ is true, yet I have not been being faithful in our beliefs of what our sweet baby is doing.  She is doing the Lord's work and being a missionary sharing the gospel to those who have passed that did not get a chance to hear the gospel of Jesus Christ.  We also have our own guardian Angel.  Thank you dear Heavenly Father for the challenges, and help me to be your faithful servant.